I mentioned low self-esteem in the first blog. Of all the quizzes I have done throughout the programme, this one caused the most emotion for me. I think due to the fact I had such a low opinion of myself and I had created the phobia I was battling to live with.
My original score on the self-esteem quiz was 25% (15/20). This was definitely self-criticism and limiting beliefs and not from my family background. I always thought of myself as a failure, that I wasn't good enough. Why hadn't I achieved more. I told myself that my gravestone would read 'could have done better'.My perfectionist thinking was dragging me down and I couldn't see all that I had achieved. This was the case in all areas of my life.
When I first completed the Action on processing my positives, I did struggle to come up with ten things from the previous few days. The ones I did come up with were largely based on doing things for others or their comments making me feel good. Paul made me re-think and start to process the positive things that I did for me.
By now I was on about week three or four of the programme and I felt like a light had come on and everything started to come together and become clearer. It was like a huge weight was being lifted from my shoulders. I can’t explain the elation I now feel. Every day I see the positives in the small things, not wishing the days away until something exciting takes place. I have so much more confidence in myself and my ability and I enjoy taking on new challenges and testing myself.
I am now so proud of myself for all of my achievements, big and small, including completing the Thrive Programme and overcoming the biggest obstacles of my life. I changed my belief on ALL but one of the 15 self-esteem points and by the end of the programme my self-esteem was (and remains at) 95%!!!Next time - Challenging safety behaviours
No comments:
Post a Comment